This has been an intense season of introspection for many as they are called to navigate through things they would never have chosen for themselves. It’s been a time of going deeper into the things of God and allowing Him to highlight areas of our hearts that need His healing touch. As I was in prayer over the past two weeks I sensed Him showing me a glimpse into what He is doing in this season. He wants His kids to shine brightly and He is going after the things that dim that Light.
We get really good at compensating when an area is injured or not in a fully functioning state. I hear His heart desiring His kids to be fully healed, fully functioning, and fully alive to be and do all He’s called us into. I see Him with defibrillator paddles headed toward the lifeless places deep within our hearts. He is restoring those places back to His original design, back to life in Him!
I realized in my own life that I had become really good at not being offensive to God, but I never pondered whether I was being defensive with Him. We associate being offensive with behavior or words coming out of us, it’s active. We associate being defensive with keeping ourselves safe which many times means not putting yourself into unknown situations. That is an inactive state. It’s a guarded state. We can be just as offensive in our inactivity as in our activities. We can be offensive in our defensiveness when we are unwilling or put off something God is calling us to do or say.
I realized that I was supposed to be fully dead to sin and alive to Christ and that meant all my protecting myself from the unknown had to die once and for all. Truth is I was already free but my soul needed completely shifted into that truth. Isn’t it funny when we think we are dead and then He pushes on a spot and we feel it??? So when it says we are to be dead to sin that means even insecurity and fear of all kinds too! Sometimes we get so focused on the death to sin that we don’t step into the alive in Christ! Have you ever seen a butterfly who wouldn’t fly because he had maintained the thoughts of a caterpillar and can’t imagine that he could ever fly? Jesus died to make us more than conquerors and if we are to be dead to self and alive in Christ than we need to take on ALL He is in ALL it’s glory!
Love Conquers Fear
He is dealing with fear in all forms. I’ve shared in videos before about how I was in professional ballet for eight years and by the end my heart just wasn’t in it anymore. I learned that if I do something well then it will be taken out of my hands and I will be in a situation that I don’t want to be in and end up feeling controlled. I had to break an inner vow about not doing anything I don’t feel like doing. I learned to walk the fine line between not failing but not excelling either. I had perfected mediocrity because I thought that was the safest place to be. Now keep in mind this was all internal. Nobody but God knew this was in effect. He wanted me to completely dismantle this thought process as it was not in alignment with who I was in Christ.
Romans 6, 7, and 8 are my favorite chapters of the whole bible. The revelation of our co-crucifixion and co-resurrection with Christ is life changing. Paul had divine revelation I’m telling you. In 6:11 we are told that since we are joined with Him we must continually view ourselves as dead and unresponsive to sin’s appeal while living daily for God’s pleasure in union with Jesus, the Anointed One (passion translation).
I started to see that sin’s appeal for me was in my comfort level of what I would and wouldn’t say yes to. I had to be more in love with Him than I was fearful of people’s opinion of me. I had to learn to do because He asked me to do it, not because He guaranteed a desired outcome. If I fail then it’s for His glory, if I succeed then it’s for His glory. Not about me at all.
God started speaking to me that He was a good Father and there is nowhere I go that He isn’t with me. If He is with me…I’m never alone. I had to learn to speak truth to my emotions whenever I felt alone. I had to learn not only that He was with me, but He is in me. From the moment I made Jesus Lord of my life, I died. I became a new creation in that moment. We walk out that truth by renewing our minds in the Word. We are called to put on Christ and that isn’t only to keep you from doing wrong things, but also to propel you forward as a force to be reckoned with into this world. He isn’t only my love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness and self control. He is my passion, zeal, perseverance, courage, boldness, persistence, confidence, and my excellence.
He is making our defenses offensive FOR HIM and FOR HIS GLORY! He is bringing truth into who we are in Him in it’s fullness! He is turning insecurity into security, timidity into courageousness, procrastination into motivation, invisibility into a willingness to be seen, fear of the unknown into reckless abandoned faith in Him and His goodness!
Love Him whole heartedly with a fierce obedience, lay down your defenses before Him and allow Him to build those weak places into the places where His glory shines through brilliantly!! Instead of desiring to be invisible out of fear, He desires to make us disappear on the stage of this world so He can be clearly seen!