There are some of you who are to be generals leading this next move of God but have been deeply wounded by situations in the past. You feel stuck. God is NOT going to wave a magic wand to re engage your heart with His. The disengagement wasn’t on His end, but yours. He is looking for your YES to Him again. Through your YES He will begin to wash away all the remaining pain and distance of the last season.
It all starts in the secret place, just you and Him. Do you remember what that felt like? He wants you to return to that place of fully being known at your core and loved abundantly simply for being you. He has no other agenda. He’s not mad at you or disappointed. He gets it. He understands the “why” behind the “what” you have done.
He wants to hold you as you flood His throne with your tears from what you have walked through in this past season.
You have blamed Him for things that He had nothing to do with and yet He was faithfully with you the whole time….every second of every day. He wants all of that mistrust and misunderstanding so He can give you His truth in exchange.
It was never a performance based relationship of “you scratch my back and I scratch yours.” You feel that you did your part in the past and He didn’t do His. You feel like you paid for a service and never received it. You feel He abandoned you when you needed Him most and it is simply not true.
This relationship is one of “you give me your heart and I give you Mine.” It’s a heart exchange and not a business contract.
Find His heart again and you will remember it and you will remember the flutter in your heart that happens when there is divine connecting happening.
He needs you to change your perspective on some things and it will bring you the life, peace, and freedom you’ve been seeking.
The place where you press into His heart and share secrets is calling to you. He is waiting and He can be trusted. He will gently resuscitate you and through you choosing to delight yourself in Him again, He will give you the desires of your heart.
Don’t get that part confused… the seeking, abiding and delighting ALWAYS comes first. He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. That’s all He wants. Make time for Him and seek Him. He is waiting.
This morning in prayer I heard the Lord say “I want My pen back.” As a writer that caught me off guard so I asked Him what it meant. This is what He said…
Many of My children have taken the pen out of My hand in the writing of the story of their lives thinking they can do a better job. They haven’t fully trusted Me with the painful chapters they didn’t understand and they doubt My ability (grace) to make something beautiful out of it. They have taken back control and are trying to write what looks beautiful or successful in their own eyes. They have even tried to erase the hard chapters because of the shame they thought they held. I don’t see shame when I look at these chapters I see learning opportunities and the rerouting necessary to develop the character needed for a meaningful life.
Those harder chapters in their story also contained many divine moments with Me but the memory of those moments of the miraculous have also grown dim. Some of My kids have ended chapters prematurely and written off characters who I intended to have an ongoing part of their story. They have even written in characters they think will make it more successful, readable and popular. Please remember the wisdom of this world is foolishness to me.
I am saying to these people now “I want My pen back.” I love you more than you can imagine and I can be trusted with it. I can take this story and make it absolutely everything you ever wanted it to be. I’m going to restore the chapters and the characters that you have omitted and I will create a work of art with your life and it won’t be a work of fiction. The smile and laughter you will experience will become genuine as you discover I am the Hero of your story, it was never intended to be you. Watch and see that I am good and I do work ALL things together for your good!
Phil- 2:3-4 – Do NOTHING out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others.
1 Corinth 3:19 – For the wisdom of this world is foolishness in God’s sight. As it is written: “He catches the wise in their craftiness”
Romans 8:28 – And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
I hear the Lord saying “I am changing the details of the map you are following to your destiny.”
I believe He is doing a mass RECALCULATING or REROUTING for many in this season. You may have been staring at the map of your life for years almost to the point of having it memorized.
As you look at it now though it looks a bit unfamiliar to you as He has changed some things around. Some of the landmarks you knew where ahead, suddenly aren’t. Where you knew there was supposed to be a straight road, there’s now a turn. Where you thought there was nothing but green lights now hold a mixture of red in there too.
You may even question if this is your map at all due to the unfamiliarity of it all. He is taking you a new way with new things to see along the way and maybe even a different final destination.
New roads are being added to your map and some roads are simply no longer on the map. The tried and true way you are used to driving no longer exists. You are being given a new way to get where you are going.
There will be new traffic lights with new traffic patterns. Some might not make logical sense. You don’t understand why there is a red light in that particular spot….trust Him. You might not understand why that road is closed….trust Him. Remember you are being rerouted by the Lord.
Trust the lights you see with people and places. Some will defy your human logic and reasoning. You may have had a green light with someone in the past but now it’s red. Trust in the map maker! He knows both what He’s doing and where He’s taking you.
There is GREAT JOY along this journey as long as you stay humble, moldable and teachable in His hands. Keep your eyes on the map. It can be found tattooed on His heart.
Do you trust me? I mean whole heartedly trust me? Even when things go in the opposite direction (in our eyes)…trust me? I’ve heard the Lord asking me these questions and I think MANY others are hearing the same questions being whispered in the midst of the most terrifying situations.
There is a sense deep inside that He’s asking you to walk through a door which holds both your wildest dreams and also great anxiety.
I see many hovering between the comfort of the past and the unknown of the future. It makes me wonder if Dorothy had known there was a tornado coming and she would end up in Oz…how she would’ve slept the night before.
It’s almost as if you know that when you walk through that door it will be like saying goodbye to Kansas FOREVER and your life WILL NEVER be the same from that point forward.
Trying to sort through the emotions of it all and forcing your heart to truly line up with your mouth when it says to the Lord “not my will but Yours be done.”
You come face to face and heart to heart with “it is no longer I living but Christ in me.” This scripture suddenly has new meaning to you. Now it’s personal.
My mind is so extreme because to me it feels like He is asking me to jump out of an airplane or to willingly stick my finger in an electrical outlet!
I know that this very choice for MANY OF US will usher us straight into our destinies. I know without a doubt that by leaving the safety of the river banks that we will walk on water.
Do you trust Me with your future? Do you trust Me with ALL you hold dear to you? Do you trust Me that I won’t let you fall?
May we all come to the point of proclaiming…”Yes Lord I trust You….I whole heartedly trust You! Come what may! Into Your hands I fully release my life!”
He is looking for a faith that defies logic in the emerging pioneers! A faith that looks fear in the eye and declares “Do your worst, my God is with me, I will not be shaken!“